On Tuesday, I met with my friend, Liz, and during the course of our conversation, the theme became examining our hearts before God. No matter what frustrations, circumstances, emotions, even obedience that comes in life, we constantly have to examine ourselves in His presence and His word.
I am so bent in my flesh to cover over and build a wall to my heart…to try to fix situations instead of trusting God. I am also lazy. I know from experience and from His word that I desperately need him every moment of everyday, but I think, I do not want to deal with that right now…maybe later. I expect that eating a healthy meal on Tuesday will carry through to Wednesday, and it will not…I will be hungry and in need. It is through disciplined time with him day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year that fruit is produced in us by Him. I am so glad that the Bible uses analogies of farmers and athletic training…things that take hard work and patience to yield growth. I know these truths in my mind, but why does my heart so want to run to ease?
So, here is another day that I am in desperate need, and I will choose to set aside time to be with Him. And, once I am there, I will see the joy grow in my heart. I will see His hand shepherd and shape me. I will see that He is gentle and faithful, and I will see where I am not. My mind and heart will be transformed to think beyond my self-protection. And I will think to myself, why do I ever want to avoid this time to read the paper or look on the computer or rush off to do chores? And, I will pray that He draw me here again.
John 15:5 “I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.”