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Triple day

So, three posts in one day? You can tell I have not had internet access on my computer for awhile! I have run into people lately who have noticed that I have been infrequent with blogging.
Just a quick update on where I am…In the same place! We are taking a little break from the decision-making phase of fertility. I hit a wall of exhaustion where I could not process anymore, so Here I am–waiting.
I have tried to be more guarded with my time and give more grace to myself to rest. I have to remind myself of this every week, and I am not really whipping this goal like I would like to! However, I know waiting and resting in Him is what I am called to do for the moment.
My 35th birthday is a little over a month away, and I can say that I am NOT looking forward to this milestone with all the baggage I am carrying right now. There are many things that I would have imagined to come at 35, but life with no children and no direction on that front would not be one of them. I thought I might just skip it–ignore reality! However, I had a very gracious reminder from a dear friend the other day of all the fruit I had gained to this point. I would have NEVER learned to treasure Christ and look to Him as my all in all hope without this season of infertility. My prayer is that I CHOOSE to be thankful for this gift that He has given me. I would not have gotten to this growth in my heart to seek His kingdom first without His directive–I would never choose those depths on my own. I pray that whatever this next year or five may bring, that I may not lose sight of Him, my treasure.
I am painting more, cleaning more, encouraging young women more, and waiting some more–there be my life in a nutshell!

1 thought on “Triple day”

  1. Jen
    You have to celebrate your birthday, because those of us who love you need to celebrate you! I will be glad to loan you my 40th birthday plans as an idea of what to do, as long as I am invited!

    Love you!

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