Today, we go back to the doctor for the first time since January 4. January 4th was not a good day for me–it was the day I hit the wall. Since then, we have taken a break from counting days and ovulation and giving shots and going to the stinking doctor more times than the grocery store. However, today, I walk back in the doors and find out what my life will look like for the next few months.
There is some nervousness and dread involved. I have a talent of trying to skip to the end with my worries. Why do we do that? What control do we really have? How am I aiding anyone by obsessing about things that I do not have control over?
This is how you can pray—for surrender and trust in my most gracious Father who has everything in His hands for His distinctly good purposes. Surrender, surrender, surrender and remembrance of His complete faithfulness that does not let me go when I am faithless.
Let’s just say I have a lot to surrender because the thoughts that tend to roll around in my head could offer an interesting lifetime movie—or maybe make as much sense as a lifestime movie:). Thank you to all of you who I know and may not know who read this blog…who care…who pray. Love to you.