Many people in the course of these years of blogging in infertility or teaching in the midst have come to me or commented on how my blogs have encouraged them in the weight of their journeys. Some that I suspected might struggle, some who I had no clue were struggling…
Some of you might say, “I could not put that out there.: It is not easy–it’s a vulnerable place and when publicized it makes it more vulnerable. You open yourself to possibly hurtful comments made by others who mean to help but push the dagger farther. You also open yourself to the gift of others praying for you…countless ones who may not even share it until much later. I totally believe that God brought Jack and this growing baby by the prayers of the saints who found out about our infertility through Greg and I being vulnerable and asking for help.
I have always journaled–since I became a Christian 25 years ago. It is a tool that helps me tackle the reality that is going on inside my heart. It helps me share with God and hear what He shares with me. It helps me to study His word and mark down what comfort and direction His word brings in the midst of my emotions and life. So, why did I blog it?
2 Corinthians 1:3-7
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer. Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort.
I am not my own. I have been given a hope and life in Christ that flows over into others. I spend my time attempting to point others to truth and to help them to grow. The point of my deepest growth is oftentimes the point of my deepest pain pressing into Christ and his truth. My suffering was and is met with His comfort, and in sharing that with others, I hopefully can help them lean in to the Lord and be comforted and in turn they hopefully do that with others.
So, why do I blog this? Because the reason I faced it is for the comfort for the Body of Christ…to share with them the depths and the treasure of Christ. This is a tool to do that. I want to treasure Christ more than anything I might have lost or may be losing and help others to do the same. He is worth it.
I am not special in this…That doesn’t mean you have to blog it. In the world of blogs where people become celebrities, that is not what the aim is. The world does not need another mom blogger, but the world needs moms who struggle who are honest with those around them about where their hope is found–Jesus. People around you are hurting and they need to know how you struggle to your hope–not perfectly, but in the truth of Christ. If you struggle with perfection or an eating disorder or infidelity or singleness or jealousy or have lost a sibling or a child or a parent or suffer from depression or Pick any thing, God has a way for you to share with someone else. We are a Body…with all different parts held together by the Head–Christ. Where would God have you share? Are you pressing into Him?