Raw, empty and hopeful

Four years ago, during the Christmas season, I lost my dad. For some reason, I thought that would be the numbest Christmas–the weirdest–I would ever experience. By experience, this year I am discovering this is not the case, and there may be harder Christmases to come. This is not our home. We like to thinkContinue reading “Raw, empty and hopeful”

Living Life…

“Whoever find (her) life will lose it, and whoever loses (her) life for My sake will find it.” Matthew 10:39 What does this look like in our day to day life? I am studying Matthew and have been in Matthew 8-10 today. I am reminded again about the cost of discipleship. We are not promisedContinue reading “Living Life…”

Slowing Down

After the last intense blog, I feel like a need to put people at ease. (Trying to package it again:)) I do want to give an update: Last year or so I picked up a book recommended to me by my friend, Melba. I did not read it then, but God reminded me of itContinue reading “Slowing Down”

Wide Angle Lens

Don’t you just wish that you could view your life with a wide angle lens? We can get so mired down in our specific trouble that we become nearsighted and blind. There are those rare occasions that God gives me a gracious glimpse of his purposes and reasons and I actually listen. Notice I saidContinue reading “Wide Angle Lens”

Just Campin’

Why do we order life, or rather think life should be ordered, for our comfort and ease? We spend time accumulating, building, investing in things that fade like freshly picked flowers. Lately, I have been challenged by the Spirit and God’s word to think on life in light of eternity. This momentary circumstance (whether infertility,Continue reading “Just Campin’”

Letting go…

This has been a particularly emotional week for me. It started last week with the preparations for my niece, Brittany’s wedding (where in the process, I began taking double the amount of hormones for infertility). The wedding was wonderful, even though, it was an adventure with rain and relocation. Instead of outside in the rainContinue reading “Letting go…”

swirling thoughts

My prayer for today–also the words to a song: ‘Spirit, now living and dwelling within me, keep my eyes fixed ever on Jesus face. Let not the things of this world ever sway me. I’ll run ’til I finish the race…’       These words encapsulate a theme swirling through my head and heart.  TheContinue reading “swirling thoughts”

Lost in Life

    So, it has been awhile since I have written a post.  This last week and a half has been filled with struggles, thoughts, joys, exhaustion, friends, ministry, etc, etc.         Daniel’s funeral was very sobering for me.  It was surreal to see so many friends from college in such a hard setting.Continue reading “Lost in Life”

Growth

Growth is never easy…Comfort is easy, unawareness is easy. Spiritually, living is hard and dying is easy. I was talking to a friend yesterday about a book we are reading together. It is a book that deals with the heart–the reality of who God is and the reality of who we are. She remarked toContinue reading “Growth”