When you feel like Christmas is not for you this year…

This time of year has a magical hue, but it can be brutal to one’s inner life. Expectations, build up, performance and the wave of reality crashes… Dreams, hopes, memories, pressure and the boat tips as someone else has a different plan. One can have such hopes and seemingly feel invisible in all the noise.Continue reading “When you feel like Christmas is not for you this year…”

Relationships are “Shady”

Life is complicated, huh?  Our rhythms may look mundane and repetitive, but the journey of our hearts and minds in the middle tell a much more convoluted story.  This week, I have found myself watching Hallmark movies and throw back Disney Movies that give a less complicated version of life that remind me of myContinue reading “Relationships are “Shady””

Kindling

I remember the moment last December. I looked up at each person passing in front of me. Some were faces that I had known up close and from afar. Seated near the front of the congregation, I got the distinct privilege of witnessing the holy moment. Person and after person with real stories and strugglesContinue reading “Kindling”

Scandalous

I am beginning to lose count of the number of times the Lord has urged me to share.  It might be an inkling of something going on with someone.  It might be a part of their story they revealed.  It might be the look of desperation and a pattern I see in their behavior.  ItContinue reading “Scandalous”

Who Do You Think You Are?

I have had and have different roles in my life–leader, wife, friend, daughter, sister, aunt, school counselor, pastor’s daughter, pastor’s wife, momma to two boys, business owner, struggler with fertility, starter of a non-profit, disciple-maker, serial dater, avoider of conflict. These are not who I am, but they help shape me by dismantling my own agenda.

Whatcha carrying?

Here I am, 44 years old, dressed like it’s 1996. Overalls–check. t-shirt–check. Backpack filled to the brim–check. No shower–check. No makeup–check. However, unlike 1996, the load I am carrying is much heavier. My wise counselor once told me that if you feel a heavy weight that that is not indicative of God’s presence and theContinue reading “Whatcha carrying?”

What did I expect?

It all started with a little conversation with a woman who embraces life with gusto. We found out our birthdays are one day and 11 years apart. She asked me what I had planned for my birthday. She had 3 separate parties planned. I said, “Wow! We don’t really have high expectations for birthdays.” Then,Continue reading “What did I expect?”

Turn me off…

Life is unbelievably noisy. We live in a constant state of anxiety and go. This morning, as my brain and heart raced on the road to nowhere, I declared “I’ve had it.” Done. Ever feel that way? As a mom, wife, business owner, and responsible human being I cannot just declare “done,” but it signalsContinue reading “Turn me off…”

I see you…

I see you finding your way in the world. I see you weaving through thoughts, doubts, experiences to find your voice. I see you bounding through a park with energy, spunk, empathy, and imagination. I see a freedom of owning who you are with no regard for what others think. I see you unaware ofContinue reading “I see you…”