Where does my hope come from?

Jack turned one a few Sundays ago.  My heart was full with thanks, memories, relief that that first month was not to be relived:).  What a beautiful, fun-loving, joyful, strong, funny, determined little one we are blessed with.  In the time of postpartum depression, I could never have imagined the beauty of his life andContinue reading “Where does my hope come from?”

What If?

What if we got what we wanted when we wanted it?  That’s what we demand…   What if I had gotten pregnant in the first months we tried and we never went through the years of infertility?  How would my life be different?  How would the world be different? If that…then I would not haveContinue reading “What If?”

Feelings, Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Feelings…

In the last few days I have had several conversations that remind me that our feelings can be tricky.  We have feelings for a reason.  They help us express joy and enjoy life.  They can be exhilirating.  They often can alert us to something big going on in our heart and relationships.  Feelings are notContinue reading “Feelings, Whoa, Whoa, Whoa, Feelings…”

Lots of Thoughts…

      It has been a long while since I have posted a blog.  Many times I have thought of topics to write about that are swirling in my head and heart–I just have not.          Life is full of different seasons.  My thirties, to this point, have been about pain, struggle and immense growth inContinue reading “Lots of Thoughts…”

A thankful heart that He has given me…

      When I was in 8th grade, I went to an aerobics class where we listened to a Mylon Lefevre song “Thankful heart” while we did abdominal exercises.  An ironic lesson for choosing thanks in pain (who likes sit-ups?).  An ah-ha moment–exactly what I have been learning the last few years–learning to think on truthContinue reading “A thankful heart that He has given me…”

A four letter word…

      Need…that’s right.  I said it.  Need is a word we do not like to say.  I mean need in the true sense.  “I need to go to the grocery store,” or “I need a pedicure.”  This is not the use of the word I am referring.  I am referring to the necessity of aContinue reading “A four letter word…”

On Being a Pastor’s Wife…

       As I was spending time with God this morning, I began thinking about being a pastor’s wife.  Unlike some women out there, I did not go looking for this title.  I had no romantic ideas about this–I guess I do not wear rose colored glasses about anything.          I grew up in a minister’sContinue reading “On Being a Pastor’s Wife…”

Nothing…really

       I have had an epiphany as of late.  I am completely clueless and powerless to run my life–marriage, ministry, fertility, relationships, leadership, etc.  You may be saying, “duh!”  However, do not all of us have this false sense of control from time to time?  We think we have it covered…oh yeah, I have doneContinue reading “Nothing…really”

Wait a minute…

Wait. We use that word frequently in our days. “Wait til your Father gets home!” “I can’t wait until vacation–it’s going to be great.” “There will be a 4 hour wait today because the doctor had some emergencies (i.e. had a long enjoyable lunch).” “How long will I have to wait for Mr. Right? Mr.Continue reading “Wait a minute…”